What is love?

Scientists come up with a way to describe love.
http://www.youramazingbrain.org/lovesex/sciencelove.htm

Stage 1: Lust
You want to take off each other clothes and be sticky and sweaty

Stage 2: Attraction
The blind stage, everything about your new love is perfect

Stage 3: Attachment
You grew attached to whoever your hormones ask you to.

There are no Stage 4, stage 5 or 6

If life is that simple.

My version:
Stage 4: Resentment
When your hormones wear-off and now you are wondering why are you have to explains your whereabout to this guy. Why is he ignoring you?
There must be a better guy out there

Stage 5: Destruction
You behaved in a certain way to makes fights and arguements possible.
You might also participate in Stage 1 with another person

Love... Sucks...

Replying Messages - The courtesy

Living in a digital ages, we are bombarded by endless information. With times, it might get a little irritating, but oddly addictive.

Working in a team that consists on all tech-savvy people, we still have to accepts that if we uses apps like Whatsapp to send out any notices, we should still followed up by an email, else, it is totally acceptable if the message get ignore, completely.

 I sometimes need to cascade information, and I would add, "let me know if you received this" still no replies.

Is it too much to get a reply? I mean when I see you, you are constantly on your phone.

Same things in a relationship.

How should I felt, if you told me:"I do not want the obligation of having to reply the message." You knows how it sound?  It sound like, :"Hey, I do not value our relationship enough to have to go through the trouble to say something back, so suck it up or leave it!"

Were I over-reacting ?

I do not think so.

For me, it is a courtesy to reply messages, I sometimes do forget, because I received a tons of messages daily, but I would always try to reply, just so the sender know, that their message is being acknowledge, this is so logical and standard to me.

Even just a good morning, or good night, or even a "like", or a "noted"....

No it is not cool to let the blue tick do the job, it is even less cool to turned it off.
If you have to live like you are afraid of being accused of ignoring someone, therefore, you turn off the blue tick just so you can ignore someone, you should reconsider who you should mingle around with.

Personally, I found wechat is so fun... You can comments, text, call... Even recalled a message.

There are no blue tick, our friendship / relationship is based on our own courtesy to reply, and responds.

It is a courtesy to reply.
It is also a courtesy to gives enough time for someone to reply.

When is really urgent, call.

Life should be simple, and beautiful.

Post Menstrual Sadness. Hormones!!!!!

So.... Period, every women in productive age have to experience them.

Some its less terrible and some got it bad.

However, while cramps is usually very obvious. there are less obvious symptoms behinds the scene

Personally,

I do even know my base line emotion as it fluctuate so much.

One weeks to even 10 days before the period: I am extremely touchy and irritate easily.

That fire usually burnt to the person closest to me.

I then dwell into sadness of hurting the person I love.

Very near to the period, I usually very jolly and happy.

Then, period, when I basically felt nothing but lethargy.

After period, headache, and sadness.

Like a spiral of sadness. I would cry and cry and cry whole day....

It is so irritating!!

maneki-neko

Maneki-Neko.
Cat that symbolised good luck and fortune in Japan.

Prince is a good example why cats are good luck bringer.

He knows where the best spot is, and,

he intuitively knows where the good stuff is.

Example:

He is sleeping with my wallet, on top on my laptop bag. Both the breadwinner and the bread-storer of the house.

Bumper

Another bumper.. One after another. In some point I just wished the boat got flipped over finally and I can drown. Everytime I thought we are heading closer to the shore, we hit another bumper, and a lot of time, I am responsible for making the bumper we hit.

Unworthy of Love

I always knew if I wanted love, I would get it. But, I would never believe it either.

Never believe I am worthy to be love, or the love was worthy to put an efforts in.

Constantly doubting, questioning even the most unrealistic questions, picturing unrealistic scenarios.

I want to know, is this a Psychology problem?

I need to learn from my cat, who, in all time, so gentle and caring, even he would never truly understand the world around him. He loves, he cares. I will look at him everyday, and in my own sick minds, wondering, : Mr Prince, how could you still love me?

Scammer part 2

I just started selling my pre-loved stuff last friday. In less than 5 days. I encounter countless scammer.

More example:

1. SMS- Asking you to reply via email only (ignore) those are scammer

2. Phone number that start with +234 (nigeria)

3. Asking email for online banking transaction.

This should be a red flag to everyone.

I notice Malaysians are very trusting.

I have 3 buyers already just bank in the money to me after confirming the amount.

I feel the same way many seller are equally trusting as well.

This is a unique quality of Malaysians, just make sure it is not being exploits by others .

carousell

Recently been using carousell to sell my pre-loved stuff online.

The request was quite a lot but... also a lot of scammer.

My own experience:
Scammer Type 1:
Currently living oversea (usually UK). Send money and tell u the bank over-charged. Warn you that you have to refund the excess amount or the FBI will take action.

Seriously?
Example:

Bank requesting shipping confirmation to release fund? Since when?

Amount too small. So the bank transfer a bigger amount but put the transaction on-hold until you refunded back the excess amount (before any money actually went into your account)

FBI is so free they are now not only working on the U.S. ; Also in Europe, particularly on fraud cases because terrorists are nothing compare to some fraud cases.

Lastly, an actual exchange of email with a scammer. The manner. Unbelievable.

So....

Beware

No makeup?

A lots of girls like to proclaim they are the all natural types who can go out without wearing makeup.

Sure, but... it should depends on the occasion.

People who have good healthy skin go without makeup because its show that they are capable of taking good care of their skin.

People who have bad skin, very unhealthy skin,
please dont be proud of not wearing makeup.
You are not showing your true face. Unless you like to think your true face is like this.
You should be willing to admit that your skin are bad. and maybe seeks professional help to clean it up.

People who love makeup, like myself. Particularly triggered when people who have terrible skin goes around without makeup, and still shit proud of themselves. First, nothing wrong to love to wear makeup. I wear it like my second skin a lot. I love it because the process of putting on makeup, calms down my nerves. I love it when I get to experiment with different makeup items and different tools.

Nothing wrong to love going without makeup, or with makeup.

But when its come to your "True face".

It's really just show, either you puts efforts to take care of yourself, or not.
It doesn't means you are true to yourself or not.

Prince is a cat

Many many years ago ( three years to be exact), Prince was a friendly, affectionate cat that love human company. 

Now, he sleep on tree or top of the car, can march around the neighbourhood marking his territory.

Leave the human in the house all by herself.

Love?

Those who ever fall for a much older man, would know it's would really take a long time, to forget them and move on.

They are so much wiser, so much more experience, a different perspective.

Yes. I guess for some it is gross to say he will be like a father you want, but never had. Yet he is also more than that. People like me, who never quite love before, are pre-dispose to this kind of relationship.

He always know how to take care of me. Fixes stuff around the houses. He can talks in public. Proudly, very elegance..

Sometimes I do wonder, was I searching for substitute for love I never get from my father when I am with him?

Or do he simply represent everything i always wanted all my life?

I can't let go.

Happily never after

Can't shake the thought when your boyfriend ask you to search for a richer man. Sound advice I would said. Especially if he is currently umemployed, for a few months now.

I am getting frustrated as well trying to help him back on his feet. I understand things can be fruitless, efforts could be wasted; but simply saying it's not easy, then not trying. 

I feel like I am being blamed, for his career failure. I was not the person who makes him come here, and stayed. I was not the person who made him cancelled his concerts, quits his jobs and moved continence on fake promises.

Why do I still still willingly take up the blames? Is it what Love like? Willing to carry the burdens of another person? 

Need all the luck I can get.

if loving you is wrong

If loving you is wrong,

then next pharse is "Then i don't want to be right"

But in more realistic situation,

If loving you is wrong,

I would like to find out how wrong?
How much wrong I can endure before I gives you up.

There was a time, when I try to convince myself loving you is wrong. It's not right.
Because of your age, because your education background, your income level etc

So I try my best to push you away.

yet, I have fallen so hard for you, I try to keep you as much as well.

The contradicting actions have resulted so many fight and tearful night.

The moment I finally felt the saying: " If loving you is wrong, then I don't want to be right" feeling.

It was when you gave me an ultimatum.

I thought I was ready to leave you. Move on, be happy with someone else.
But truth was, still is,

I don't want to be with anybody else but you. Your routine became mine.
We finally have more open conversation.
We finally able to share more


Yet....

You stay 100000KM away now. You refused to return. This country, and me, doesn't treat you very well in the past.

I took, 15 hours flight to see you. I thought I would be emotional,
but i was so afraid.
What future beholds, no one can knows in advances.

So, i pray. I hope. I do my best, so that, this time,

I will not miss you again

Childish

There a word that stuck with me for some times now.

It was used to describe me by a woman almost twice my age. Yet she is not my mother, any immediate family member, a dear mentor, nor a dear friend. She is an acquaintance; but yet she meant a lot to a dear friend of mine.

By associations, her opinion will almost certainly affects how he will think about me.

Am I a childish person?

I admit there are times I behaved rather selfish and self-centered.
But I don't judge her with her similar behaviours.

Why do she thinks she have the rights to judge me instead?

Is it something to do with her being old and sad and alone? Ok that was mean.

Life

Life is difficult. Unpredictable.

Worrying at it doesn't helps.

I was always worry. Worry about the pasts. Worry about the future,

My worrying. Does not help me prepare. Instead, it makes me depressed and paranoid.

I am not sure will I be able to fully grasp the fully potential of life.

And yes, I am worry about that too.

France Trip (6-13 July 2016)

Châteauroux

Hôtel Les Dryades Golf & Spa Resort.

Pouligny-Notre-Dame 

Chateau de la Lande

 Crozon-sur-Vauvre · 

Paris

Josephine Chez Dumonet.

Baroche.

I know I kept you up all night yesterday. But do you have to sleep like this?

Running, in Winter

Running in Winter... Its hurt your lungs but give you rosy cheeks...

Dutch Food Experience Part 2

Power Juice - Ginger Carrot & Orange

Good? Yes

Expensive? Yes

I am a simple girl from a small town. This is my first time I had bagel.

and.... 

It was amazing!

Vegetarian Bagel... For my vegetarian sister<3 p="">

Bitterbalen... One of the Dutch delicacy that did not receive enough recognition

Sashimi, Antwarp, Belgium

No I will no save anything for you

Mochi-ice. First time again... 

and yummy

Dessert pizza. Inside its filled with Nutella, Outside is crunchy with walnut & caramel chunks...

I made a mess trying to eat this. 

By a mess I mean I makes the puff explose and have chocolate dripping from my face.

No Regrets~

Last year i went to my Thai Colleague (Lovely Chintana) 's house and learn to make TomYam.

Feeling confident and craving for spicy food, I gave my best shot.

All I can said its, its edible~

Yes from time to time i feel sorry for the person who have to endure my cooking.

But if you don't try,

you will never success.

Dutch Food Experience Part 1

Baby Pancakes.
Sprinkles with icing sugar & cinnamon powder,
Served with Pear, Apple & Cinnamon flavour ice cream

Club Sandwich, beach house near Noordwijk Beach

Serve with shredded chicken, chicken crisp, tomatoes & avocadoes!!!

Yum!

My birthday dinner. Make after the best duck leg & potatoes I had in Paris.

Now, someone went to try recreate it.

And despite it looked so very normal, the taste and the meaning, were to be remember and cherish.

My birthday cake. Apple Pie.

Amazingly good.

Peas Soup: from club house Waterlaan Golf course.

Its looked so normal and humble, like most Dutch food is, it is actually packed with a lot of flavours, chicken chunks & sausages are all in the soup. 

As a meat lover, I approved

Feast your eyes upon...

Feast your eyes upon: My beautiful Lyla....

I found her on the street... Seeeeeeeeee.....

Beautiful.. Kind... Sweet....

Best package

and free

Accident Happens: Nude pic on Facebook

So today i woke up to a few scary messages:

All sounded like:
"Hi, did you know you accidentally posted a photo showing your breast on Facebook??

If its an accident hurry up to delete it."

It was 7 hours ago as I am currently in Amsterdam while most of my friends still in Malaysia, 7 Hours ahead of me.

Well without the blur obviously

I was drunk; and pissed. My bf ex-gf came to the house yesterday, leaving her dog for us to take care of. Instead of speaking English they spoke Dutch which I do not understand. So annoyed & drunk, i try to facebook trying to organise my photo.

Bad Decision!

Lyla!

29/04/2015: My first encounter with this lovely girl 

Naughty Prince

Wiggle wiggle ... Attack!! Attack!

Why do you hate the Lyla?

Burger

Bob Burger

Burger with Hotdog?

Japanese Burger

 Pork Burger