CSI and Relationship

CSI, the original series, are one of my all time favourite series.
The relationship between Grissom and Sara are the relationship I long for.

However, I know, I knew, I can't be Sara. Not having her wits, her humour, especially not her independence, where she just left, to be with herself.

I know it's fictional. Character, made up. To serve purposes like entertainment on televisions.

But I guess, when I do realised how much the series influenced me, its a little late.

I like... for starter, older man....

Yes I like men in their late 40s and early 50s. It's really suck...

I also seems to like men who are mostly in their own world. Smart... extremely smart... and extremely devouted to their work.

I am not sure I will ever be as lucky

I wish to be happy.

First I need to kill off the little skepism and suspicious nature in me. But I highly  suspect it is possible.

Happy

Looking for reasons, excuses to be happy.

Things that used to work like a miracle, stop working.

It is getting tiring to find.

Become very obvious now. Happiness need to come from inside. From the soul or whatever that are fundamentally you.

Pointless

Pointless.
I gave up.

I can have a much better life without you anyway.

Trustworthy

I wonder how trustworthy another person is, constantly
It is amazing to have complete trust

I wish to have that
I wish to be naive enough to be able to do it
Stupid enough, brave enough... To put complete faith in another person

Driving In KL

I remember I was once told that Malaysians are lovely bunch until you seen them drive.

Sadly, it's truth.

But worse, we are the products of the consequences of the actions of others.

Today, on my way rushing to meet my dental appointment, I found out a stalled truck have blocked one lane of the only exit out of the town. It had resulted in massive crawl. It took me 30 mins on a 5 mins drive to get into the highway.

While i got stuck, i began to think. On waze there are people commenting this incidents had happened few times before.

So.... Can we, prevent it? Can we, do something about it.

Hell Yes.

1. Truck, broke down: 
Government should implement a annual check-ups for all trucks. Givens there won't be bribery. It should reduce the chances of random broke down on the road.

2. One of two lanes were blocked.
Police should be deployed. To allowed car to enter also on the opposite lane. 

But can we, normal humble drivers, do anything?
Sadly, there really isn't much to do
You can make decision to take a break, go for lunch nearby, wait it to sort out,
or do a U-turn and try MEX highway...

We are mere mortals and I wish to fly

BTW>>>
First wisdom tooth extraction.
Drove there myself. Did the surgery and drove home.

I guess there were a reason I stay in long-distance relationship.

Oh well

Muslim and Oppression

Refugees issue brings out the deep seeded fear of most western people have against the Muslims, especially after the 911 incidents.

I always feels somewhat conflicted how to feel about the issue of Muslims refugees facing.

As a non-Muslim living in a country almost run by radical Muslims, I feel the oppression, every single day!

Why? Looks at the paint brush issue, it "might be" made from pig hair, and that's made them - Haram! Non-Halal... Because, we eat with the paint brush?

I understand the concern of course, I am conditioned to be avoid offending the Muslims with lots of courteous. Don't eat when they are fasting, turn around if you have to drink,; Avoid wearing revealing clothes;

But... Let us see how the authority handle the issue:
They confiscate all the brushes suspected to the made from pig hair, ; issue one month "Grace Period" so they agreed to produce stickers to label accordingly.

Meanings?

Is it not oppression?!?!

Sometimes I hope the Muslims in this country go out, especially those fucking radicals one.
Stuck them somewhere where they be treated the same way they treated the non-Muslims here

I believe to achieve Utopia, is not only to removed the sense of Good and Evil, but all religions.

Why bother to get to some non-existing heaven or paradise when you can enjoy Utopia when u are still fucking alive?