Lyla

Haven't really dealt with the fact that Lyla is lost, and I might never see her again.

I don't know how to talk about her, do I use past tense? or present tense?

Do I pray that she is well and living with another family? Or do I pray to her spirit resting in peace?

The hardest part is not knowing.

Nothing... absolutely nothing, can be worse than this.

I feel... inadequate... I feel... incomplete...

I woke up, and i think about how she doing...

I woke up and I remember my mistake, handing her over to another person...

Putting her in another trauma, knowing deep down, I cant trust them...

It's now too late...